Gina: Day 16

Today I woke up feeling bad.  My cold seems to be settling in my sinuses and I had a sick stomach from all the drainage.  Needless to say I haven't done any exercising.  I need to ride my bike and do my arm exercises I never got around to yesterday.  I'm feeling unmotivated.  The scale is plotting against me--I'm sure of it.  I'm getting that frustrated feeling of having worked so hard with minimal results.  I know I shouldn't expect miracles, but seriously is 5 lbs too much to ask in 3 weeks?  Evidently it is--even though I'm pushing my body to the extreme.  I hate having to lose weight.  To put the cherry on top, I saw some photos of myself from a playdate yesterday.  Some how I kept getting snapped in the background--in very awkward positions.  The pictures were very unflattering.  I hate being overweight.  I want to lose 20 lbs, but it doesn't seem to be working.  Feeling hopeless today.

Food:

Didn't really count my calories today much.  It was too hard.

Breakfast: Cereal: approx 460

Lunch: 2 slices pizza- 560

Dinner: 3 meatballs (freezer leftovers) and leftover carbonara pasta--not sure on these cals

Snack: a handful of pretzels and a 1/2 glass of wine--not sure on these cals

Spiritual/Emotional:
See above.  Plus, I'm just so on edge w/Colin.  I feel bad, but I just feel like I need a break.

Also--Scott got hurt tonight at his soccer game--in the first 3 minutes.  He hurt his knee.  He always gets hurt, and it makes me mad.  It's irrational for me to get mad--he didn't do anything wrong--he wasn't being stupid.  His knee stopped, but his body kept going.  But I swear he always gets hurt.  I'm so frustrated and on edge w/our house issues.  Just want to cry. 


Exercise:
Made up my stuff from yesterday.  Plus I rode my bike for 50 minutes (did the Carmichael Training System video we have--good stuff).  Played w/C--very minimally at the playground at the soccer fields at Scott's game.