Struggling this week...again

Just trying to make it through this week.  Not feeling great, waiting to hear about our house.  So stressful.  Scott and I did manage a workout last night.  I haven't run today (just like Monday), but I'm hoping to get it in.  Not doing great on the eating front, but not terrible either--last week was much worse. 

Giant Ass

So, I went for a walk Thursday.  Then I did Kenpo w/Scott Friday night and ran Saturday.  A nice walk w/the fam yesterday.  I haven't run today, but need to.  I keep eating and eating--I just feel so hungry.  Saw a photo from the playgroup--have bottom the size of Brazil (to quit Bridget Jones' Diary movie).  So frustrating.  I feel like I have a cold---again.!

The new plan

Ok.

I suck.

Not really. But I have been trying to do this Couch to 5K program and
I have hit a few roadblocks.

Roadblock #!: It is only 3 days a week. Which doesn't seem like
enough to me. Although 3 days a week has been all I can manage since
boot camp ended. Because I suck.

Roadblock #2: Josh has been up late working. A lot. One of his new
responsibilities this year is to break down film of opponents'
matches. It is time consuming and he often brings it home with him to
finish after Eli goes to bed. And for whatever reason, I don't like
to go to bed by myself or if I do, I rarely fall asleep until he comes
to bed. So I am up late, too. Which makes it EXTREMELY difficult for
me to get up at 6am to go run. Because I suck.

So.

Next week is the beginning of October.

New month. New plan.

I am going to do the 3 days of running with the C25K program on my
phone. This will likely be Tues, Wed, Fri.
The other days I am going to do Jillian Michael's 30 day shred video
during Eli's morning nap. I rarely get to shower before this anyway,
so I might as well take 20 min to workout and then shower.

I'll take Sunday off. And hopefully ONLY Sunday.

I am going to try to do this for 4 weeks and see where I stand.

In other news...
I have been MUCH better about cooking at home. Money is really tight
so I need to be disciplined about this.
My haircut is starting to grow out which makes me not like it as much
and so the pony tail is making frequent appearances.
Doing a new kind of Bible study at church this fall, stemming out of a
'read the Bible in a year' reading plan. Even though I am not the
leader of said study, the personalities of the group makes the
discussion kind of dependent on me. Translation: I'm the only one
who talks. Boo.

Not going well

I haven't exercised once since getting back home, and I don't feel like it.  I'm considering taking the week off, and just trying to find some new motivation.  I have been feeling really tired and funky since we've been back.  And all the salt water taffy from Savannah and the pretzel m&ms are not helping. 

I'm back: Week 6--a bust but lots of fun!

So, I finished week strong on Saturday--I worked out before we left for the trip--running 35 min in hilly Fenton.  Then vacation began.  I ran Mon. and Wed. did a little water aerobics for 20 min in our pool on Tues, and then I crapped out.  I really wish I had run on Friday (at the very least).  I did okay w/eating at first and then I caved in--lots of drinking (not heavy drinking just wine or daquiris and such most days).  I had lots of fried seafood the last half of the week and fast food and pizza on Sat.  I'm sure I've gained about 5 lbs.  Got lots of work to do to get back the momentum I had.  I think it was worth it, but I should have shown a bit more moderation in my eating.  I don't dare weigh myself for a couple of days for fear I will be VERY depressed.

How are things going for you?  Loved E man's mohawk.

Gina: Day 32

I lost 2 more pounds (seems that obsessing about everything I eat wasn't as successful as just eating whatever the hell I want--how does this make sense?). 

I ran for 40 min this morning.  I was really hoping for 45 min, but I don't think I had the other 5 min in me, and it would have required going past my house a 2nd time, which I just couldn't muster the motivation.  I finished this same course that I ran almost 2 weeks ago 3 min faster.  That's some improvement I'd say!

Food today: bad.  Colin asked for a cheeseburger on the way home from MOPS today--I was starving, so we stopped at Carl's (local drive-in). I had a cheeseburger, a small root beer, and half my fries (they give you a ton).  Must now eat lettuce for dinner--not going to happen.  I keep sabotaging myself. 

If I lose 1 more pound I move my 2nd digit on the scale.  15 lbs to go!  It's a long way to go.  I'm guessing it will take me about 3-4 months at the rate I'm going--not exactly the rate I was hoping for, but as long as I lose it. 

I did blowdry my hair this morning for MOPS. 

Gina: Day 31

Started off overeating at my playdate at my house this morning.  No one was really eating, so I felt obliged to make a dent--mental I know.

Need to do plyometrics, but not really interested-might try to do a variance video of plyos hidden on P90X I found last week.  Feeling a bit lazy and burned out.  **Updated: I did the 2 videos--nice change of pace--since I've never done them before.  Tomorrow is a wake up early and run day (these are always hard for me to wake up)

Need to do better eating.

I lost the weight from the weekend--maybe it was sodium, swelling related--really need to drink more water.

Grilling sundried tomato chicken sausages and making basmati rice w/broccoli.  Just need to watch my portions!

Not doing well spiritually--have seemed to all of a sudden revert to my old ways.

Gina: Day 30 update--losing my mind

I ran yesterday morning--it was hard--only had time for 32 minutes. 

I had a bad morning w/Colin.  I bought a Little Caesar's pizza for us for lunch.  I caved--ate 2 pieces and drank 3/4 of a coke.  I ate okay for dinner and worked all evening prepping for a playdate at my house.

The end of boot camp

Isn't it ridiculously annoying how hard it is to lose weight and how
easy it is to gain it? Hate that!

Boot camp ended last week... I dramatically improved on my endurance
(we redid endurance tests on the last day) and was encouraged by
that. But I know that motivating myself to work out on my own is
going to be much more difficult.

I started C25K yesterday... it was a pretty easy start as it assumes
you are just getting off the couch for the first time. But my shins
were hurting which made the process a little more uncomfortable.

Then I bailed out on running today - we had a really long day
yesterday and I knew today was going to be long, too. So sleep seemed
like a priority.

My Tuesday morning Bible study started up again today ... we are not
doing a video based series this time around, which should make things
interesting. Eli seemed to enjoy his time in the nursery, although
there was only one other little girl who I think was around 4 or 5.
It is over his normal nap time so I have been trying to get him back
on schedule since then!

Didn't blow dry my hair today or yesterday. Fail.

Josh leaves on Thursday for a tournament in Texas. He will be gone
until Sunday. =(

Gina: Day 29 and 30

Bad News:  I gained 4 lbs this weekend.  Seriously--can't combine fair, ballpark, and Chinese food all into one weekend ever again.  Seriously depressing!

Yesterday I rode my bike w/a video for 52 min and then I did about 15 min of upper body weights and abs.  I drank a very considerable portion of a bottle of red wine.  Very bad--but very tasty.

Today: I tried very hard to oversleep, but Scott had sneezing fit, so I woke up only 10 min after my alarm.  Went for a 32 min run this morning.  Felt hard at first--I was having stomach cramps--gas pains (went to bed w/them after my weekend of indulgence and still had them this a.m.). 

Taking C to a painting party this morning.  Have a difficult issue to workout w/DMV b/w 2 states and the bank.  I hate red tape--avoiding this.

Seriously need to watch my diet this week.  Had major setbacks this weekend that I need to overcome.

How is your new plan--couch to 5K going?  I love 5Ks--so gratifying and pretty manageable after a short while training.  I wish there were more 10 Ks--I'm not ready for a half marathon, but I'd like to push myself for more than a 5K (since I've run 3 of those before).

Hello, my name is Gina, and I'm an overeater

AHHHH!!!  Been seduced into overeating by delicious Chinese buffet.  Just Say No!  I usually detest buffets, but we've eaten at this place w/takeout before and it was really good.  It was the good kind of buffet--small.  In my opinion the quality of food on a small buffet is superior to that of the places that serve 20 entree dishes, 6 appetizers plus sushi, wings, and mongolian bbq.  I should have stopped at 1 plate, but have no willpower--am spineless jellyfish. 

AHHHH!...supposed to be "rest" day, but now need to run 500 miles to achieve enough of a calorie burn to compensate.  Not sure when the heck I will exercise as we have tickets to baseball game this evening. 

Hateful, delicious food.

Gina: Day 27

Went to bed early last night...Ahhh-nice. 

Got up early this morning and did Tae Bo (kicking it old school) for 30 min or so and then 40 min or so of Yoga X (will likely finish the other half of yoga this afternoon as it will not require sweating w/the portion that's left.

Tomorrow is rest day--woohoo!!!

Food:

Doing well so far.  Did eat some potato chips, but just one serving. 

Gina: Day 26

Bike ride for 55 min to my Spinervals DVD

I overate a bit today at lunch and dinner.  Not terribly, but definitely overate.  Feeling stressed--too much pasta!

Not a lot more to say. 

Gina: Day 25

Food:
brkfst: cinnamon and sugar toast, milk, and half a banana--yummy

lunch: leftover pasta and a the rest of the pico de gallo

dinner: I made grilled chicken breasts (I marinated in lemon and lime juice and the zest w/olive oil, balsamic vinegar, salt, pepper, and garlic). It had a really good flavor.  I made homemade mac and cheese w/broccoli as well.  I tried to keep myself to a reasonable portion of the mac and cheese, but it was so hard.  I had a glass of wine w/dinner (big one since Scott poured--haven't finished yet).  Seriously if you haven't had White Haven Sav. Blanc you've got to try it (if you like Sav Blanc)--so yummy.

Exercise:
overslept (didn't sleep much last night--this is such an annoying pattern)
I did a Jillian Michaels power yoga (all moving poses, no holds really), then Pilates Plus, and then I did the last chance workout of Jillian Michaels--the intervals and upper body. Just didn't feel like I had had much of a workout from the other two--especially for my arms. 

Emotional:
Need to find something to do w/c today.  It's rainy--not a lot of options. This is foreshadowing of a long winter. 

We ended up going to the Discovery Museum, where Colin hit 3 kids.  I don't know what to do about the hitting--it's so obnoxious. 

Wednesday

Today started bad and got worse.

I slept through my alarm and completely missed boot camp. I only have
two days left paid for so I can just go tomorrow and Friday, but it
still totally threw off my schwerve.

Even though I got more sleep, I was completely exhausted all day. And
I ate lots of pretzel m&ms.

Blah.

Gina: Day 24

Exercise:

When my alarm went off this A.M. it was thunderin gand lightning, so I slept in instead of running.  Got my run in before dinner right when Scott came home.  Ran 38 min--pushed myself.  On a gross note, I got 3 gnats in my right eye.  I got one out while running and 2 when I got home.  When I looked in the mirror to see if I still had a bug in my eye, I noticed like 5 dead gnats all over my face.  Weird: I wasn't running that fast.  Gnats beware!


Food:

I did really well not overeating today.  Had eggs and toast for breakfast.  A grilled cheese and light bologna sandwich and pico de gallo.  Cheese stick for snack.  Dinner: Homemade crockpot pulled pork, baked beans, and green beans.  I ate true serving sizes and skipped the bun at dinner.  Thinking of rewarding myself w/a small glass of white wine--White Haven Sauvignon Blanc.


Emotional:

Went to the zoo with some other moms and kids.  Helped C paint for a few minutes and had lots of play time w/the little guy.  Didn't blow dry my hair. 

Spiritual:
Read my Bible, but that's it.